middle of the winter

It’s already the middle of the winter. And this is so good - as spring will come soon!
My wish now is to buy tickets and to depart somewhere to a silent place. I want a lake nearby or it is even better - falls.
My dreams. We most likely will go in the summer to our friends on a visit and we will sadly wander on vicinities.
The most pleasant will be sitting in a pub.
Why this happens in my life – I want such things that are unattainable for me, but at the same time I don’t want those things that I can easy to get?!